the meaning of MY life for almost all of my life but as I get older, it seems to be pressing on me harder and I find myself thinking about it on a daily basis.
As most of you know, my biggest fear in life is ironically death. I'm so scared of death because it is inevitable. It IS going to happen but I don't know when, where, and under what circumstances. I'm slowly learning to accept death as an event that has to happen because I was born. I'm scared of a lot of things... flying in airplanes, heights, horror films... and I realize that I'm scared of all of these sort of things because I'm scared of dying. I don't want to die in an awfully painful death (I don't know who does) but rather die in my sleep at a very old age.
I guess the best thing I can do is really try to enjoy every single day that I'm on this earth and stop thinking about dying, it's going to happen so why stress about it?
Things I really want to accomplish in my life:
Become a very successful Cosmetologist and stay happy
Become a wife and great mother
Own my own home, and be able to make it perfectly mine (and Ted's of course)
Travel as much as possible, eat, drink and enjoy each place to the fullest
Stay in great health so I can do anything I set my heart to do
Find the meaning of my life!
